facing my fear

I've neglected this blog of mine for a few days.  There are a couple of good reasons.  One is that Will has been feeling yucky thanks to a cold so I've spent my time lounging on the couch with him.  The other is I'm afraid of the computer room.  Yes, I realize this sounds a bit silly but my mom understands.  Saturday night I had a little fainting spell in this room which terrified everyone, including me.  After I was feeling better I couldn't help but apologize a bunch to Will just because I know it was horrible for him to witness that and feel helpless.  I almost didn't call my mom to tell her because I knew she'd panic but I finally did.  And she did panic.  She has the major hook up with most doctors in town so luckily she called in a favor and I was able to talk to a doctor without going to the hospital and get a little reassurance.  I barely slept that night though because I kept thinking I'd die and I didn't want to leave Will or my family.  Luckily all seems to be fine now.  Tests came back normal and hopefully I never have to experience that again.  Right before that episode I made this little book for Will just for fun and I thought I'd share a few pages with all of you.....

  
Ok now I feel better that I got it over with and faced my fear of this room.