nights with ever

nights around here are a mix between hilarious and frustrating.  ever has a very hard time giving up the fight and going to sleep which can make things frustrating.  but at the same time she can also be extra funny and full of giggles which makes for the hilarious portion.  last night she thought everything i was doing was something to laugh about which had will and i cracking up and forgetting we were exhausted at 1am.  three nights ago she was doing her usual wild refusal to sleep as i was talking to will about some stuff that has been weighing heavily on my mind.  as i was letting out my sadness and worries in the form of tears ever looks at me with the most peaceful expression as if she was telling me it would all be okay.  our eyes locked for what seemed like minutes and the love radiating between the two of us was almost palpable.  i squeezed her and kept repeating how much i love her and how smart she is.  we had a moment.  now when we have the nights where she isn't being so funny and giggling like crazy but rather crying and fighting me i reflect back to our moment and i can't help but ride out her wild time with a smile.  ever truly is such an amazing little person and i love that i am her mom.  we understand each other.