the truth

*daffodils....one of my most favorite flowers which were brought over as a gift this evening from some lovely ladies.

i am shy.  i go through times where i feel insecure about myself or my art or anything really.  i worry about what other people think way too much.  i stress about insignificant things.  sometimes i let my insecurity or shyness get in the way of life.  i let it keep me from pursuing dreams to the fullest.  i let it keep me from getting to know other people.  with that said, tonight is a night worth writing about.  a couple lovely ladies that i don't know very well were set to stop by my house.  this has been the plan for a few days and as silly as it might sound i've been anxious about it.  i had all sorts of questions swirling around in my head..... 

what if my house isn't clean enough or put together just right?  what if they think i decorate my home much like a kindergartner would?....because i kind of do.  what if this outfit looks bad on me?  what if it's awkward and we have nothing to talk about?  

i'm pretty sure that i can safely say i'm not alone with this sort of thing.  it's human nature to be this way or at least woman nature....sometimes a little and sometimes a lot.  i have to say, it seems that just when i'm worrying about a certain time like tonight all the sudden i'm reminded that the world is full of beautiful people.  we all have a story and we can all relate in one way or another.  i discover the magic that each individual person has and that is such a refreshing feeling.  after our visit my batteries that were in desperate need of a charge felt full.  i felt renewed, uplifted, and inspired.
it is a goal of mine to be more open and less ridiculous so that i can find more wonderful people in this big world which i can call friends because i know there is plenty more magic out there in every soul.
two lovely ladies came by my house as acquiantences and they left as friends.